|"The heart hath its own memory, like the mind. And in it are enshrined|
the precious keepsakes, into which is wrought the giver’s loving thought." ~ H.W. Longfellow
Have you ever been some place or waiting for something and a memory just floods back at you? It could even be a memory that was long forgotten or maybe even never remembered until that very moment in time?
This is exactly what happened to me today. I was waiting in my car as my husband was filling up the gas tank. A memory of my Dad came rushing at me at such a pace that I could almost not breathe.
Here is the memory:
A few years back, I was at home in the early evening/afternoon. I received a call from my doctors office informing me of some test results I had previously that week. The results were that I was diagnosed with having diabetes type 2. I remembered that I was totally upset and called my Dad. (I do not remember where my Mom was).
Over the phone he said not to worry and that I would be alright and "we" would do what we had to do. He calmed me down and I told him ok. Then I hung up wit him.
I had calmed myself for about 10 minutes when he walks in the door but my Dad. He had not been at work that long when I called him. I asked him what he was doing home and he said, "My daughter was upset and I needed to be home with her, so, here I am."
I remember telling him that he did not have to come home but I was glad he did. He spent the rest of the evening just talking with me about whatever.
I can honestly say that this memory had been long forgotten and pushed out by so many other not so great memories. Dad and I spent years angry at each other for what now seems so stupid. I wish that I could have remembered this a long time ago. Maybe it would have made a difference to me, maybe not. In any case, I am glad that I remember it because it brings something positive to my life. Something positive about Dad.
I cannot help to think that maybe even Dad...wherever he is now...possibly remembered this time too and wanted me to remember the positive times between us. I am glad that I did no matter what.
I miss my Dad in ways that are unbelievable now.